Today Is the Perfect Day

Today is the perfect day to never be what you don’t want to be again.

Read it again.

I read this while doom scrolling and then I stopped.

I thought — what a powerful thought.

Haven’t we all waited for the perfect day to do things? To maybe wear that pretty dress you bought, or start reading the book you picked up months ago, or simply begin something you’ve been putting off, waiting for the right time. I do this all the time. And then when the perfect time arrives, the thing just doesn’t feel right anymore. It loses its novelty.

I think I’ve lived so far with this fear of the “right moment”. And honestly, I don’t even know when it arrives and passes me by. I’ve decided now to do what my heart pleases - whenever it pleases. I don’t want to be defined by one thing. I want to be many things, all at once.

I’ve been a calligrapher for over 8 years now. But somehow, it doesn’t bring me the same joy it once did. I waited every day for that joy to return - contentment would be the right word - but I wasn’t content. I was restless and would often spiral down the dark alleys of my mind.

Last year, something shifted. I knew I didn’t want to do this forever. I was good at it, but I wanted to be more. I wanted to be the artist I know I can be - the one I wanted to be since childhood. It was my only dream. Just because back then I was told I couldn’t be one, doesn’t mean I can’t be one now. I am the only one standing in my way.

What’s the worst that could happen? In my mind - no one would buy my paintings and they would hang in my home and studio forever. (It doesn't sound so bad now that I have said it out loud)

And what’s the best thing that could happen? In my mind - I could create a legacy and leave something behind when I am gone for other's like me.

I don’t want to wait anymore to become that.

If little Rachna knew she wanted to be a painter, then as an adult, I should honour her. I owe her that much. You never know - she might just be my true north.

So coming back to the thought that led to this one-sided conversation -

Every day is perfect to be who you want to be and leave who you don’t want to be behind.

You’ve got just one life, no? It’s at least worth trying.