My heart is in a twist today. I watched ‘ At Eternity’s Gate ’ - a film based on Vincent van Gogh’s life. My eyes welled up at many parts, and some moments stayed with me long after. He had a hard life. And he was way ahead of his time, and the part where he acknowledges that made my heart sink. He says (I’m trying to remember), God has asked me to sow the seeds, but my harvest isn’t here yet.  And then he says that the people who would love his work are not here yet. Maybe he was born with...

Last night, just before going to bed, I found myself stuck on a thought I couldn’t quite shake - why do we say “Ram naam satya hai” when someone dies? Yes, I understand the meaning. The name of Lord Rama is truth. He represents dharma, righteousness, the ideal life. Chanting his name is believed to guide the soul towards peace or liberation. But here’s what doesn’t sit fully right with me. Once a person has passed, their life is already complete. Their karma is done. There is no more striving...

All I worry about, other than wondering when this fog is going to clear from around my head, is how much protein I am consuming. Does this have protein? Is this enough? How can I have more? Since I have started working out properly with a personal trainer, I am becoming more mindful (at least I like to think that), learning so much from him and in the process understanding what is working for me too. I watch recipe reels on Instagram (don't roll your eyes) and my god, eating protein is so...